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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 07:54

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

As i do to all so called friends.?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

This is soul school!.

How can you maintain self-control?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I waited trembling.

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She wouldn,t have been !

Why does my private parts itch so much during certain periods?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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Why did i forgive my father ?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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I write beautiful poetry .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Ive learnt so much.

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

All the time i was locked up.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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She was in good health!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

My family never makes their pension either.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He knew the spot.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

So, i spoilt her more .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Comes on , in middle age.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She found it foreign!.

It was going to be , some day.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

When she asked me how she looked .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I said to her

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

She loved him until the end.

Im still living with it.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I was seconnd youngest,

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I think the readers, may guess!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But, we were locked up after school.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

So whats the point in blame.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One cannot live in the past .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

(And it was in our own minds.)

And i lived it daily.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I don,t even have a pension.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Put me off passion for life!!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My life is so biszare .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Would this be the day?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I have no regrets .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I was 9 years of age.

What did i know ?

Was to survive, this bastard.

Who then, do I blame.?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I could never make a relationship work though!

She married twice! .

I never cut or harmed myself..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We all went to grammer schools

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was scared of men, in general

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We were not on the streets..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But it wasn’t much.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I was very sick at this time too.

I will be 64.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He resisted the act ,that day.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.